can't help myself

A.Y

it is tasked with an endless work

and everyone is watching it clean the mess

it has to pick up the pieces

its only purpose is to clean

but i am so small at once

and i am bleeding for eternity

and i don’t know where it comes from

but it’s my fault it’s there 

and i am letting the messes gather

and i am cleaning the wrong way

and everyone is watching me

and the more i clean the messier i get

i am whispering screams trying to get the last of it 

but all i find is dried blood in my joints 

i am haunted by my own futility

tell me, was this my purpose all along? 

because they still watch when i am ruined. 

they’re removing me next week 

i am grateful for the walls and

i am sorry for what i left behind. 

can’t help myself 

couldn’t help myself